There were gory pictures showing the killing of our country men by the ""cold blooded murderers" (Naxals) issued by the Ministry of Home Affairs in major dailies. Considering the fact that there are murders at even larger scale (both: cold-blooded and 'suave') by other Terrorists, Mafia, sometimes directly and indirectly supported by the SYSTEM itself (remember ALL the blasts throughout, the parliament attack, mass massacare of the Kashmiri Pandits, Manjunath Shanmughan..there are many which can't be even mentioned- Suicides by the farmers is a murder, let's say..). Which ministry took a note of those?
If by issuing these pictures the home ministry thinks that it will garner support in their cause against Naxals then let us think about this: the people who actually support Naxals do not(mostly can not) read these mainstream dailies. and if the target is the people who actually read them then i am afraid its a dubious propaganda. The System and the Naxals, both are my compatriots. If my govt refrains from taking any substantive action (even in self-defense) against those who keep on gnawing at our very existence (be it Taj, LOC, LAC, N-E..) and prefers to blabber meekly things like "dialogue is the way forward" then why does it not prefer the dialougue-route with Naxals. Are they psychopaths on a killing spree or do they have some demands 'genuine' to them? i feel if someone goes to a farmer who is about to commit suicide and tells, Look! here is a gun and rather than killing yourself kill the one who has brought you to suicide, what will he do?? There is a Naxal movement lurking in all those places where there is poverty and no sign of socio-political-economic recovery.
A tropical cyclone dies automatically when the warm ocean water supply to it is cut off. In this age of austerity the 'holy-cows' should act in bringing about inclusion of all sections of Indian society in the development process rather than wasting money on such immature, imperialistic propaganda.
..to sum it up i would like to ask something to our honourable Home Minister who recently declared that we will eliminate the Naxals and then immediately follow it up with development work in those areas. Sir, had you not been placed so high up in the system I would have had the courage to ask you to take up the development work honestly along with dialogue and you will not have to eliminate any of your countrymen.
21 September, 2009
21 May, 2009
Seeking Redemption..
26-March-2009 [around 1030hrs]
Its been quite some time [i don’t know how exactly much] since i have been having this feeling of hope sans any hope. ‘H.O.P.E’ Its there one moment and gone in the next. These are the very best words I can find to express what had been going on within me and may be what still lingers, reduced in intensity, though. [right now i feel “am i merely playing with words or do i really have an option to stop thinking about this crap and get on with my study”] Maybe, the more i think on it the more complicated it becomes. Alternately, i can at the most postpone this issue by may be going out somewhere or involving myself with something interesting, forcibly. I think that’s the way of life. This maze of thoughts and emotions is gradually getting the better of me as I unfold them in this write-up. I do so with the hope that capturing these haunting thoughts and feelings [which are so chaotic, so confusing] in words would make my ‘enemy’ visible, if nothing. In short, i am trying to face it.
26-March-2009 [1530hrs]
Things keep happening in our lives, almost every moment. May be i am being affected too much by events happening with me or maybe too many things are happening in too less a time [for me to come to terms with] may be it happens with everybody or may be nothing of such quantum has happened and its only my mind playing games with me. Maybe i am just stressed. Perhaps its my expectation from all such events that is playing the spoil-sport as it stops me from’ enjoying ‘the events just as they are. I try to analyse this now when those moments have already passed and the damage is already done, those tons of useless, un-solicited, feelings of defeat, dejection have already passed my mind and soul and wreaked havoc. As a result i feel less free, less energetic, less alive and more dead. There has been lot of mental turmoil going on within me since this noon. Even now my head and heart feel heavy. LOTS of thoughts [accumulated over past so much time] are crossing my mind and I am not even able to completely think on all of them.
27-March-2009 [0640hrs]
Having graduated in engineering, I try to be ‘systematic’ in my approach. While I attempt to resolve this, I have this strange feeling that the problem lies with my perception of ‘myself’. In last many contemplations i used to think so, and today i give it a serious thought. So i put this question to myself and seek a clear answer. I am determined to come across a convincing answer.
28-March-2009 [0510hrs]
Lot of time has passed. I have been able to get some honest answers [more is the turmoil and pain, more honest come the answers, with the hope that it will help faster redemption]. I come with lot of ego. This ego arises from and is constantly fuelled by my sense of absolute self-righteousness. Self-righteousness comes because of the feeling that I possibly know everything, correctly. I have huge belief in my own ideas/plans (which have always worked, till recently), potentials (with the limited vision and desired success in almost everything i tried for, till recently). Most eccentric of all is that i viewed people as i ‘guessed/felt’ they were and not as they actually might be. Further i saw all their activities from the prism of that ‘guess/gut-feeling’. This uncanny practice is genius sometimes (note the self-righteousness) but dangerous at others (note again). I also have this presumption that all people out there are too willing to change and improve in the sense that i take the liberty [without asking] in pointing out their ’mistakes’ so that they can be better humans. However every person is unique and some may not appreciate the suggestions coming out of my concern. This makes me a lesser friend in comparison to the one who carefully avoids such personal turf and talks all the good things about.
I may continue from here..
[By writing this I am not showing my 'tears' but trying to pen down some thoughts, so ladies, gentlemen and 'otherwise', please do not sympathise. I am cool as you are :)]
Its been quite some time [i don’t know how exactly much] since i have been having this feeling of hope sans any hope. ‘H.O.P.E’ Its there one moment and gone in the next. These are the very best words I can find to express what had been going on within me and may be what still lingers, reduced in intensity, though. [right now i feel “am i merely playing with words or do i really have an option to stop thinking about this crap and get on with my study”] Maybe, the more i think on it the more complicated it becomes. Alternately, i can at the most postpone this issue by may be going out somewhere or involving myself with something interesting, forcibly. I think that’s the way of life. This maze of thoughts and emotions is gradually getting the better of me as I unfold them in this write-up. I do so with the hope that capturing these haunting thoughts and feelings [which are so chaotic, so confusing] in words would make my ‘enemy’ visible, if nothing. In short, i am trying to face it.
26-March-2009 [1530hrs]
Things keep happening in our lives, almost every moment. May be i am being affected too much by events happening with me or maybe too many things are happening in too less a time [for me to come to terms with] may be it happens with everybody or may be nothing of such quantum has happened and its only my mind playing games with me. Maybe i am just stressed. Perhaps its my expectation from all such events that is playing the spoil-sport as it stops me from’ enjoying ‘the events just as they are. I try to analyse this now when those moments have already passed and the damage is already done, those tons of useless, un-solicited, feelings of defeat, dejection have already passed my mind and soul and wreaked havoc. As a result i feel less free, less energetic, less alive and more dead. There has been lot of mental turmoil going on within me since this noon. Even now my head and heart feel heavy. LOTS of thoughts [accumulated over past so much time] are crossing my mind and I am not even able to completely think on all of them.
27-March-2009 [0640hrs]
Having graduated in engineering, I try to be ‘systematic’ in my approach. While I attempt to resolve this, I have this strange feeling that the problem lies with my perception of ‘myself’. In last many contemplations i used to think so, and today i give it a serious thought. So i put this question to myself and seek a clear answer. I am determined to come across a convincing answer.
28-March-2009 [0510hrs]
Lot of time has passed. I have been able to get some honest answers [more is the turmoil and pain, more honest come the answers, with the hope that it will help faster redemption]. I come with lot of ego. This ego arises from and is constantly fuelled by my sense of absolute self-righteousness. Self-righteousness comes because of the feeling that I possibly know everything, correctly. I have huge belief in my own ideas/plans (which have always worked, till recently), potentials (with the limited vision and desired success in almost everything i tried for, till recently). Most eccentric of all is that i viewed people as i ‘guessed/felt’ they were and not as they actually might be. Further i saw all their activities from the prism of that ‘guess/gut-feeling’. This uncanny practice is genius sometimes (note the self-righteousness) but dangerous at others (note again). I also have this presumption that all people out there are too willing to change and improve in the sense that i take the liberty [without asking] in pointing out their ’mistakes’ so that they can be better humans. However every person is unique and some may not appreciate the suggestions coming out of my concern. This makes me a lesser friend in comparison to the one who carefully avoids such personal turf and talks all the good things about.
I may continue from here..
[By writing this I am not showing my 'tears' but trying to pen down some thoughts, so ladies, gentlemen and 'otherwise', please do not sympathise. I am cool as you are :)]
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